you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand. -- Psalm 16:11
The first time I found out that the person I liked so much likes me back, I was 22 years old and I was in a hotel room in the 13th floor in Istanbul. I was so overwhelmingly happy and I was jumping up and down on the bed and singing praises for God.
Obviously, I did not end up with that amazing person. But I experienced the joy of being in love with the right person. It was made known to me, what being joyfully in love is like. I met other people after that, and tried out many relationships. I don't always know what it is, but I most of the time know for certain what it is not. I cannot go through life pretending to never know what being joyfully in love is like.
When I left my second job, I knew this is not what I wanted to do, but I had a very limited experience and knowledge of other market options available for someone with my qualifications and skills. I knew I wanted to do something different, not quite sure what it is, I made a list of what I want to see and have in a job and recorded it in my prayer book. Then 8 months later, after being so frustrated and tired for being out of work for so long, I had THE golden opportunity and I started the best job that offered me a career opportunity for the next coming 7 years and everything was not only what I asked for but much more.
After that project ended I had other job opportunities and some were really great and others were not. I could tell now because I had known "what fits" feels like.
I have experienced God's healing presence, fulfilling joy, satisfying grace, protective peace and guiding light. I do face challenges now and then but I can not pretend to live in the darkness of fear and despair.
"I can surely sin but can't afford to enjoy it any more".
Today, I dedicate my life to Truth, Love, Peace and Happiness.
